So it’s been more than 4 months since I started my sabbatical. I thought I would write everyday or at least every other day – but who am I kidding, it’s been 66 days since my last post. In my defence it feels like week.
What have I been upto
I have joined a book club and joined Zumba classes. Both of which I have kept upto.
I have enrolled for an online course -I am in module 1 of it, so yup just started. I have decided to change professions, change the course of what I do. More abt it when I am more comfortable. But right now, assignments and studying again is stressing me out. These assignments are like nothing I have done before. I actually need to think and can’t google or phaff my way out of it. Stressful. But dude I am loving it! So let’s see how that goes.
I have also made friends – and even managed a night out with 8 ladies none of whom I am Facebook friends. That last happened in 2005 – that’s right before the advent of Facebook,
I like my routine as a “house wife” but I need to get more organised. But who am I kidding I am just not a domesticated soul.
I have my moments of loneliness and wondering what I am doing with my life
So its been 45 odd days since I started this stay at home business.
In this time, I have rented out our apartment, sold a car and a crib, painted a house, packed up 6 years of existence in a house, said goodbye to my city of 8 years – come to another city, unpacked and settled in to the house almost entirely and the point is
….I dont feel like I have accomplished anything.
My mind is conditioned to believe that the work I did in office is “only work”. The rest is extra curricular activities.
I havent had time to thing what i want to do next. I am busy – i dont know doing what. I am hoping that once the elf starts school, i will have time to think.
The child and his questions give me no free mindspace. My mind feels cluttered on most days.I am trying to get organised and be the fantastic put together stay at home mom’s people are.
except i refuse to be a stay at home mom – i will be a stay at home person – because while being a mom is fabulous and the best thing ever and all the things which people say. I am still a person, not just a mom – I still trying to figure out me and what makes me tick.