Category Archives: Faith

A is for April and A brand new start

 

Phew back after so many months and i have to thank the AtoZchallenge for bringing me back here.

I am pretty sure you are all fed up of hearing that I am on a sabbatical, the point is the sabbatical happened, its been a year and I haven’t really  hit upon a great next step. Most of my ideas are still just ideas. But I do know that the thought of going back just doesn’t excite me. But i WAS scared – scared to move out of my comfort zone, scared that i would amount to nothing and do nothing productive with my life.

And I say Was because this is what happened…

Like in all good stories, when they are retold, the epiphany about what I needed to do next had a rather poetic setting – Goa! We were in Goa to celebrate my 30 something birthday and i got a tarot card reading done. I have to admit, i went rather skeptically to her. She didn’t ask me anything about myself but looking at my cards she said – that things were moving fast around me and I had  done something that had brought up a huge change in my life. She said that i COULD be on the path to something great but i am resisting it for comfort and that it was weighing me down. And fortunately/unfortunately it was my choice to whether i would chose to walk down the amazing path ahead you which would bring me a lot of personal peace.

As a step towards that, I put in my papers a couple of days at the organisation I worked for. I have resisted offers of part and flexitime working. This April, it would have been 10 years of working in the same organisation

10 years has seen me grow up from a young kid fumbling around to someone who was confident about my work coincidentally starting and ending my career with the same boss and the same team (with many changes in between), 10 years wherein a young girl wanting to the conquer the world has become a mother with dreams pretty different from the ones i started off with. I have a lot to thank the organisation for  – but it is time for me to move on – Move on and see what lies ahead. Scary unknown and exciting.

For a conformist – like me this is a big deal!

Like they say the beginning of the amazing race (another A) – the world is waiting for me.

 

 

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Au Revoir 2011!

It’s that time of the year when you evaluate how the year has been to you.

2011 has been uneventful, boring even – but I am grateful to how kind it has been to me. I look around and know I am blessed. Blessed that the year was what it was.

2012 promises to be exciting, it promises to test us more than we have ever been tested! This is one year I am making no resolutions, I am going to let life lead me where it wants. I enter the year with no preconceived notions, just a promise to try to do my best!

And I hope that the Good Man above continues to keep an eye on us!

So here’s wishing all of you a fantastic year ahead!!!

If you have made resolutions may you find the commitment to keep the ones that matter
If you have decisions to make, may you find the strength to deal with the consequences if any.
May you really “live” life to the fullest
We just need to keep the faith and remember that we will always find it within us to deal with everything …if we allow ourselves too.

See you in 2012!

Letters to my future baby

Dear Future baby,

They say that parenting is all about tough decisions!

Should i be a strict or a lenient parent? Leave the kid free to be free as a bird or groom them into becoming the next Andre Agassi. Overly protect them from the world or let them face the big bad world? Most of the time it’s about walking a fine line between the various options that are thrown at you

When i look back, i wonder what your Ammamma-to-be’s style of parenting was. One of her closest friends thinks she was too strict when i was a child. As i grew up, while some parents would not let kids go off for out-of-town college festivals, she let me go. Strangely i never slotted her – i never thought of her as too strict or too much of a nag or too interfering or too lenient.

For me my mother meant means security.

Your ammamma-to-be always told me that “remember no matter what you do, i will be there.I may not approve but whenever you fall, i will be there to pull you out of the ditch”. And that for me is what my mother stands for – reassurance and my strength.

I have carried those words with me always. I may not share everything with her – but i know that when push comes to shove ‘mommy will make it ok’. I am approaching 30 and your ammamma-to-be was here for a couple of weeks, i felt like i had a wonderful warm cozy blanket thrown over my life!

And that is what i want to pass onto you – Remember that no matter what your Dad and i will be there. Whenever you need us!

So baby-to-be, My only hope is that we can one day make you feel as secure about yourself, your decisions and your life as my mother made me feel!

Lots of love
The nut!

Disclaimer – I don’t guarantee we will make all the right decisions – but maybe by the time you come around, they will introduce a responsibility giving, parenting skill giving, wise making pill which we can pop

On an aside note
When i hear about kids committing suicide, i wonder if they didn’t know that their parents were the people who they could fall back on.

Our deal

I thought we had a deal, i thought i was your special child.
You know the mater worries! and U know you have to be nice to her.
I have faith in you, i know things could be worse,
but i can still complain can’t i?

know there is no reason to cry or feel low
And the worst case scenario aint that much of a big deal.
I know there are times that i have gotaway easy
I am grateful, you know that
And i am asking you, let me getaway again.
Don’t make me pay for my carelessness.
Let me continue my unwavering faith in you

I am not that ready to grow up and redefine what i believe of u!